It’s the biggest nightmare for a parent to see their munchkin breathing his last right in front of them. But this brave woman, Ruth Scully lived the nightmare and is now sharing her story with people and especially parents, who are going through the same plight as her.
It has been two months since Ruth’s son Nolan, who was battling cancer, has left for his heavenly abode. The brave mother shares her story on her Facebook page, in a hope that this will bring a positive change in the world. It will help people face their hardships, thinking they’re not alone.
In the heartbreaking photo collage, Ruth Scully explains what a void her little baby left in her heart after his demise. We cannot envisage what the mother must’ve been through when her baby was battling Rhabdomyosarcoma, a rare form of cancer that affects soft tissue.
In one of the picture, you can see her ailing son lying on the bathroom rug, refusing to leave his mother’s side. And in the very adjacent picture, you can see a void; the blank space which Nolan left behind in Ruth’s life.
Here’s what she wrote on her Facebook page NolanStrong
Two months. Two months since I've held you in my arms, heard how much you loved me, kissed those sweetie "pie" lips. Two months since we've snuggled. Two months of pure absolute Hell.
I've wanted for a long time to write a little about Nolan's last days. His last few days shined with how amazing my son is. How beautiful he is. How he was made of nothing but pure love. This may be long, but bear with me, it's agony unlike any other.
When I brought Nolan to the hospital for the last time, I knew there was something else wrong other than just a lingering case of C-DIFF. I just knew, and strange enough, I think he did too. He hadn't eaten or drank anything in days and was continually vomiting.
On February 1st we were sat down with his ENTIRE team. When his Oncologist spoke, I saw the pure pain in her eyes. She had always been honest with us and fought along side of us the whole time, but his updated CT scan showed large tumors that grew compressing his bronchial tubes and heart within four weeks of his open chest surgery. The Mestatic Alveolar Rhabdomyosarcoma was spreading like wild fire. She explained at this time she didn't feel his Cancer was treatable as it had become resistant to all treatment options we had tried and the plan would be to keep him comfortable as he was deteriorating rapidly.
After a while, I composed myself and went into Nolan's room. He was sitting in "Mommy's Red Chair" watching YouTube on his Tablet. I sat down with him and put my head up against his and had the following conversation:
Me: Poot, it hurts to breathe doesn't it?
Nolan: Weeeelll.... yeah.
Me: You're in a lot of pain aren't you baby?
Nolan: (looking down) Yeah.
Me: Poot, this Cancer stuff sucks. You don't have to fight anymore.
Nolan: (Pure Happiness) I DONT??!! But I will for you Mommy!!
Me: No Poot!! Is that what you have been doing?? Fighting for Mommy??
Nolan: Well DUH!!
Me: Nolan Ray, what is Mommy's job?
Nolan: To keep me SAFE! (With a big grin)
Me: Honey ... I can't do that anymore here. The only way I can keep you safe is in Heaven. (My heart shattering)
Nolan: Sooooo I'll just go to Heaven and play until you get there! You'll come right?
Me: Absolutely!! You can't get rid of Mommy that easy!!
Nolan: Thank you Mommy!!! I'll go play with Hunter and Brylee and Henry!!
Below is a picture that seemed to grab everyone's attention because my son was terrified to leave my side, even as I showered.
Now I'm the one terrified to shower. With nothing but an empty shower rug now where once a beautiful perfect little boy laid waiting for his Mommy.
After reading her post, all you can do is feel proud of this brave mother and also the lion-hearted kiddo who kept fighting for his mom.