Popular American singer-songwriter Lady Gaga still carries the lasting effects of the rape that she suffered when she was 19. Recalling how she first decided to share her story with the world in an effort to ease her pain, Gaga told Vogue that it was almost like she tried to erase the incident from her brain and that she had to face the monster to heal herself.
“No one else knew. It was almost like I tried to erase it from my brain. And when it finally came out, it was like a big, ugly monster. And you have to face the monster to heal,” said Lady Gaga.
In 2016, the 'poker face' singer revealed that she suffers from Post-traumatic stress disorder (PTSD) following the rape incident. She said that she felt like she was lying to the world because she was feeling so much pain but nobody knew about it. She finally decided to not hide anymore and publically announce that she has PTSD.
“For me, with my mental health issues, half of the battle in the beginning was, I felt like I was lying to the world because I was feeling so much pain but nobody knew,” she said. “So that’s why I came out and said that I have PTSD, because I don’t want to hide—any more than I already have to,” she added.
Gaga also said that she believes that trauma has a brain and it works its way into everything that one does. When asked if she is happy, Gaga replied with a yes and said that she is focusing on the things that she believes in. The 32-year-old will feature on Vogue's October cover.